I am sitting in Starbucks drinking an Iced Skinny Latte. These things do not taste as good as the real thing, but if I am going to accomplish my goals I don't have a choice. We know life is just a series of good and bad choices. If we consistently make good choices we have a greater chance of living a happy and fulfilling life. It is the continual string of bad choices that pretty much guarantees a life like mine. This is not to say that my life over all is bad. In fact, my life is pretty good, but because of my past decisions and self indulgence I am unable to fully enjoy what I do have. That's a tough thing to admit to yourself, but here I am.
I could list all the aches and pains and the uncomfortable life I live, but if you are also overweight you already know what I am talking about. But what now? Is my life over because of where I am or what I have done? Absolutely not!!! Today is a new day. I decide that as long as there is blood, heartbeat and warmth there is hope for a better future. I can change my future beginning today and make a difference in who I am and the person others see me to be.
You people that are repulsed by even the slightest level of obesity, we see you. We see in your eyes what we see in our own each time we look into a mirror. You are affecting our vision of our self but not in a way that is helpful. We look into your eyes and are drawn back to the very thing that makes us run for the comfort of food. Food doesn't judge. And while it's pain occurs overtime, we push that pain back upon ourselves. Your attitudes of pity, disgust and contempt become part of the problem. Remember none of us is perfect, just because your dirty little secrets are not so obvious to the world there is something there you are not proud of. How would you like the world to judge you with regard to your least favorite weakness?
For me, my problems with food are related to my attitudes or (as discussed above) my changing attitudes about food. These must change before I can change my eating habits. I am trying and every day is better but I am still stumbling and suffering set backs. I must to continue to make those life changing decisions each and every day, consistently. And one day I will look back and see a new me.
God Bless you and may your decisions be good ones for you.
