I am now at day 48, what is that, 6 and a half weeks. It feels like an eternity. I have lost 26.5 pounds. You would think that would be enough incentive, but apparently its not. I don't want to do this any more. I want to be able to eat cookies, cake. a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, or anything with cheese. I have managed to handle the frustrations of my family and friends. They try so hard to be supportive but this is hard on them too. But the hardest saboteur for me to handle is myself. Growing up I frequently heard, "Give 'em an inch and he'll take a mile" I never realized that would apply to me. It started with the real dairy whipped cream on my sugar free jello . Then there was a Rice Cake layered with Fat Free Cream Cheese and No Sugar added Preserves. Finally, I totally lost it and followed the jello and the rice cake with a bag of marshmallows. If you are careful you can roast them over the open flame of the gas range and by eating each marshmallow in blackened or browned layers, you can take up to 30 minutes to eat 4, or was it 5 . . . . or maybe 6. I can't remember. That was Friday and Saturday I had gained a pound. It was the first time since I began medifast that I actually gained weight. The worst part was finding myself hungry again, all the time. And I am reminded of all the things sugar does to me. The worst is the fatigue. Not much has helped today, but I am back on the plan. After what I paid for this, I don't dare tell my husband I've quit. I can't bear the idea of not reaching my goal of getting below 200 pounds when I have less than 10 to get to that point.
I told Janie last week that I was planning to go off the plan at 190 just because I needed to feel that this wasn't forever. Well, it doesn't look like I waited, so I won't be making any more plans like that. This week, "I can't wait until...." I'm back to losing weight again.!
God Bless You and Be With You as You Work Toward Your Weight-loss Goals.
I've been on vacation for the past week, so I just read your latest blog post. I can really identify with the self-sabotage - been there, done that, have the T-shirt :-). Hang in there, because getting to goal is worth it!!! Along the way to goal, I finally shifted from focusing on losing weight to focusing on getting healthy. I stopped focusing on what I didn't want (being overweight) and focused on what I wanted (thin and healthy). Moving towards something positive was a lot more motivating than moving away from something that I didn't want.
ReplyDeleteI also thought that I'd use the plan "for a while", thinking I would use it to jump-start my weight loss, then switch to "real food" to finish losing the weight. I never did follow through with THAT plan, because if I had, I know I wouldn't have ever reached my goal. I came to understand that this WAS real food, because real food is designed to provide nutrition for our body (I did an entire blog about this a couple of weeks ago, if you're interested in checking it out!). Fifteen months since reaching my goal and losing 126 pounds, I STILL use 2-3 Medifast meals a day to help provide the nutrition I need AND to help me stay in my goal range.
I'm glad that you got right back on - keep up the great work!
Blessings!
Cheryl